All my life I have been running away. As if i would be caught or have to face or tell the truth
my vivid imagination gave me places to go or hide. Out the window, down the road, hitchhiking, to the islands.
All this was fine until I got married. I married a person so much better than I and a family, too.
Yet, I was still running away. Unforgivable escapes;
- Sailing School for whole weeks at a time, leaving my young, beautiful pre-bride at home in a small apartment, 1971, St Petersburg
- Running away together was fine because Nelle was with me. She should have always been with me, She wanted to but I just ran away,
- Even while working - it was always the traveling - accounting became consulting - more travel overnight for days, working in South Carolina, weeks while Nelle stayed home, alone.
- Fearing the bad influence i might be on my children - excuse to keep running away. Letting Nelle do all the work and parenting...alone,
- New Orleans --- the longest escape imaginable, Unbelievably selfish dreamer hiding
WHY is she still here? I have almost destroyed the young love we had by abuse
If God can help me I will try it again. Confession, Absolution, Recovery, healing, begging for forgiveness
Stopping those things that divide us. We only have 10 more years. I have wasted 40.
